In my kitchen...
So, I got home yesterday afternoon after a big day out with my little boy... we had been to Girls Church in the morning and then straight to Gymbaroo for some playtime fun for Jad...
I went to the pantry for something to eat because all I had eaten all day was a piece of chocolate cake and an apple (not good... I know!) and I discovered an opened packet of
lovely, fresh, green rocket and thought
it is definately not something one expects to find sitting next to the Glad Wrap!
I'm guessing that in my seemingly perpetual state of absentminded tiredness, I must have put it in there instead of the refrigerator as I was cleaning up the night before!
It has been a very busy couple of weeks and we are entitled to make a few little mistakes aren't we?? I did need to have a bit of a laugh... that was one way to achieve that I suppose.
Anyway... along with the tiredness, I have been a little bit emotional and this week feeling quite not myself and I was thinking as I was running out the door to Girls Church that I feel like I have lost myself... all my independence and confidence seems to have dissapated into thin air... this faith journey we are on at the moment was again starting to take it's toll and I again felt like giving up. I was saying to my husband only the day before that it's not meant to be like this... this is not what our life is about... going back to the same old, same old... back into the rat race... I want to make a difference in this world!!
Well...God must have been listening because a very lovely lady at Girls Church said that she felt someone was feeling 'fragmented' and 'crumbly'... I quietly said to God in my mind that if no one else responds to that then it must be me... and of course no one else responded... so I did.
Isn't it just so amazing that when we are feeling at the end of ourselves, God steps in and picks us up and points us back in the right direction... the way that He wants us to go.
Then this morning... still feeling my perpetual tired self... He spoke to me again...
'So don't throw it all away now. You were sure of yourselves then.
It's still a sure thing!
But you need to stick it out, staying with God's plan so you'll be there
for the promised completion.
It won't be long now, He's on the way; He'll show up most any minute.
But anyone who is right with me thrives on loyal trust;
if he cuts and runs, I won't be very happy.
But we're not quitters who lose out.
Oh, no! We'll stay with it and survive, trusting all the way.'
I'm guessing that means 'don't give up' :)